Random Thoughts

Random thoughts are piercing my brain and I need to let them leak unto this post; like letting the blood ooze out of the cranium to relieve pressure from a swollen brain.

 

I’m 25 years old but all I need right now is to play on a  swing set.

Relationships are like an absence in the teeth; love the infection, spreads from the mouth to the brain killing the brain due to over analysis, comparison, self torment and confusion.

Sometimes I just let myself rot.

If you let me, I’ll be good to you.  But I’m only human; made only of flesh, bone and blood.  You resist; I tremble and am afraid.  What do I do to warrant this rejection?  So, now I have to pretend that I don’t like you so I can keep you interested, all the while looking over my shoulder to make sure that you are still watching the performance.  Can’t it be that for once we just skip this lover’s dance?  Instead, you continue to make me dance to the point my feet fall asleep and I am truly exhausted.

That’s it for now, I have writer’s block, not sure how I what I should do for this blog.  Much love internet world!  ❤ Happy Wednesday!

 

 

Life is a Riddle

 

Today

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French friesDAY!!!!!!!

Happy Friday, world of internet readers!  Today, I am excited for the weekend and I wanted to post a cheerful, fun, excited post to my fellow weekenders!  Through out the week I have been saving  clips and pictures to share with you guys so I hope you enjoy them and at least get a small chuckle from them!

This weekend maybe you should:

http://news.yahoo.com/popular/live-life-according-sloths-223356121.html

For silly laughs:

https://screen.yahoo.com/buzzfeed/24-photos-see-die-001006713.html

Restore you faith in some brands:

https://shine.yahoo.com/healthy-living/nordstrom-latest-brand-to-redefine-beauty-by-featuring-disabled-model-174358741.html

Take a piece of advice for this weekend:

https://www.yahoo.com/beauty/think-twice-before-taking-that-sexy-selfie-91889425578.html

Funny Pics:

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Yay!- you stayed with me through this blog now give me a

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Have a great weekend and Friday!  Much love from my screen to yours!  ❤

Be in Love with your Life

 

Lately, I’ve been feeling rather blue and sullen .  It’s like I have some kind of green sticky slime all over my skin that no matter how determined my scrubbing, I never seem to get the “ick” off.  At times I feel cursed, while at other times I feel like maybe the slime is materializing from my own doings.  Either way, it doesn’t really matter how it got there.  As goes the wise ancient saying, “it’s not that you suffer, it’s how you suffer”.  So, let’s look at my situation; I’m being swallowed daily by a relentless, sticky, slimy parasite that seems to be draining me of my life so it can get stronger.   What is one to do when the proverbial sponge isn’t  scrubbing the skin clean?  One must learn that if you can’t cleanse the outside of the body there is no choice but to cleanse the inside of the body.  The parasite can sit there trying to enter my skin, but I must take care of myself from the inside out so  the parasite drops off.  Diving into spirituality has helped me to cleanse my spirit, mind and heart.  Listening to kind music, such as Jewel’s, “I’m Sensitive”, has been a small blessing as well.  Continuing to nourish my body helps, and drinking  generous amounts of water.  Walking in nature and interacting with my pets has been a purging all in itself.

Depression; is the ugliest kind of parasite.  And I believe that is the name of my parasite.  But it is also people in my life who I feel are also parasites, suckling off of my blood for reasons unbeknownst to me.  Jewel subtly begs, “Be careful with me.  I’m sensitive and I’d like to stay that way”.  I wish I could paint these lyrics unto a neon colored banter and then hold it up for the entire world to see.  In a way, asking the world to “take it a bit easy on me”.  But in away that is insulting myself.  Why should I be pampered?  When I face challenges in life I always ask, “Why me?” I ponder for a minute and then think to myself, “Why not me?  I can handle it”.  I guess all pain inflicted from someone else, really is just inflicted from myself.   I think it’s okay to arm yourself with a shield once in awhile and say to yourself, ” I will not let anyone get through my shield and I will not let anyone hurt me”.  I AM WARRIOR AMY, CONQUER OF THIS MIND, THIS HEART, THIS BODY, THIS SOUL.  NO ONE GETS TO HURT ME BECAUSE I WILL NOT LET THEM.  I AM A FIGHTER AND I WILL WIN THIS BATTLE VICTORIOUSLY!   WOOOORAAAAA!!!!!!  🙂

Today, I came across a beautiful quote, “Be in love with your life.  Every minute of it”.  Brilliant.  I need to say that quote to myself every morning I wake up!

In other Amy News… I was looking through my jewelry box this week and came across an old folded up paper.  I opened it up and vaguely remembered it.  On the paper was a gorgeous poem written by a man in the 1920’s.  I have no idea where I obtained this poem, I mean literally, I have no idea if I got a hold of it in Hawaii or San Diego.  But I’ll share it with you now even though I do not remember this paper’s origins:

“Desiderata

–written by Max Ehrmann in the 1920’s–

Not “found in Old St. Paul’s Church”!– see below

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,

and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender,

be on good terms with all persons.

Speak your truth quietly and clearly;

and listen to others,

even to the dull and the ignorant;

they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons;

they are vexatious to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others,

you may become vain or bitter,

for always there will be a greater and lesser persons than yourself.

Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble;

it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs,

for the world if full of trickery.

But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;

many persons strive for high ideals,

and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.  Especially do not feign affection.

Neither be cynical about love,

for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,

it is a perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,

gracefully surrendering the things of youth.

Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.

But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.

Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline,

be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe

no less than the trees and the stars;

you have a right to be here.

And whether or not it is clear to you,

no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,

whatever you conceive Him to be.

And whatever your labors and aspirations,

in the noisy confusion of life,

keep peace in your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,

it is still a beautiful world.

Be cheerful.   Strive to be happy.”

  And that is all the paper has to offer.  A beautiful poem from a wise man, long ago, basically boasting about the great balance that must be maintained through out life.  It is a sweet ode.

Another little gem I found, was this morning, a model opposing “Forever 21’s” problematic body image of women.      https://shine.yahoo.com/healthy-living/model-chrissy-teigen-says-forever-21-has-a-body-image-problem-203647387.html  I couldn’t agree more with this articles take on the brand.  I really wish to fight self worth issues that women face on a daily bases.  Whether women are put down relating to “barefoot and pregnant” issues, “get your butt in the kitchen and fix me a sandwich” issues, “your body has to look exactly like this model to be considered beautiful” issues, sexual issues, victim issues… all of it.  But I haven’t figured out yet how to help women.  But I’ll get it figured out.

I suppose that is all I have to offer on this day in Virginia Beach.  Much love from my computer screen to yours and please take care!  ❤

 

The Place of the Beauties

 

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  In ancient Egypt (ancient Thebes to be exact; modern day Luxor) there was a place where queens lived called, “The Place of the Beauties” .  I thought it only apropos to name this blog post, “The Place of the Beauties” because it will serve as my ode to some of the worldwide women I admire.  There are hundreds of women, if not thousands, of women I admire; but the ones I chose for this post are women that anyone can have access to.  They are women of folklore, mythology, cinema and real women surviving and struggling for their lives and that of their families or other women.  Here is my place for some of the world’s “beauties” to be honored… not a place that acts as a playground for spoiled pharaohs… but an electronic shrine to women who are fighting, surviving, inspiring… everywhere in the world.

The Place of the Beauties

Here are the Beauties in all their glory in no specific order:

Linor Abargil

Linor Abargil

1.  Linor Abargi:In 1998, an 18 year-old Linor Abargi from Israel, was crowned Miss World in a World Pageant.  That’s not why she made this list.   Only six weeks prior to being crowned, then Miss Israel, was brutally abducted and raped in Milan, Italy while attending pageant business.     But that isn’t why she made this list either.  She makes this list because of the work and travel she has since done because of a beautiful passion to heal victims of rape.  She has traveled all over the world, doing motivational speaking to rape victims but also to create awareness of rape survivors.  Her documentary, “Brave Miss World” is intense, inspiring, heart wrenching and eye opening.  I advise that one watches this documentary with a strong constitution and a box of tissue.  It is blunt and it doesn’t hold back on rape accounts and stories.

"Brave Miss World" documentary

“Brave Miss World” documentary

Christy Turlington

Christy Turlington

2.  Christy Turlington: You may know Christy Turlington as an international super model.  Of course that isn’t why she made my list of honorable women.  She made it because she is an advocate for maternal health through the humanitarian advocacy; “CARE” (Cooperative for Assistance and Relief Everywhere).   She is also the ambassador for “Product Red”, which is a global fund to raise awareness to HIV/AIDS, Tuberculosis and Malaria.   In Turlington’s documentary, “No Woman No Cry: Every Mother Counts” the humble super model visits slums, villages, and low income areas to show what women with no money must go through just to bring their child into the world.  It is of course inspiring and heroic, but also touching and sorrowful.  It reminds the watcher even in the 21st century how dangerous child bearing still is and even more so for women in under developed countries and even for poor women in the richest countries.  This documentary is a must see for everyone; especially for women.

"No Woman No Cry"

“No Woman No Cry”

Shot from "Penelope" movie

Shot from “Penelope” movie

3. Penelope: Third on the list is a little bit silly but no less important for it deals with a women’s self image.  This is an issue that is near and dear to my heart because of course, as a woman, I deal with tremendous grief and agony when it comes to my own self image.  The media portrays women as walking, talking, living Barbie dolls, and Honey, that just ain’t me.  It’s not only not me, but no real woman out there except for maybe the occasional freak of nature  super model, looks like a Barbie doll (not mentioning plastic surgery junkies).  The 2006 film, “Penelope” tells the old folk legend of Penelope, a girl who is born with a family curse, which is a pig’s snout for a nose!  Comedic, right?  True, it is a funny scenario but there is an underlying message… true beauty is the highest beauty of all.  So, what is true beauty?  A face, a nose, a pig’s snout?  Never!  A woman’s laugh, a woman’s working hands, a woman’s shed tear for another, a woman’s belly swollen with a baby, a woman’s wisdom… that’s some of what makes true beauty.   A kind word, a woman reaching out, a giddy giggle, a woman’s eyes full of life… there is no super model, flower, painting or Barbie, who can match that kind of beauty.  Look at yourself, right now.  Grab a mirror and look into your face.  What do you see?  Imperfections?  No.  Erase the “IM” part of imperfections.  You see “perfections”.  Look at your eyes.  Think about all they have seen through out their existence.   Look at your lips… think of all the lover’s they have kissed and all the cheeks or foreheads they have laid upon.  Keep going.  If you can’t do this with your face because you don’t want to grab a mirror than look at your hands right now; all the meals they have made, soil they have waded through, all the children they have touched, all the hands they have shook, all the art and beauty they have created… maybe a forehead they have petted.  You’re beautiful.  Learn to love yourself because that is the best love of all.

"Penelope"

“Penelope”

Fictional charcters, "Molly Gunn" and "Lorraine "Ray" Schleine".

Fictional characters, “Molly Gunn” and  “Ray Schleine”.

4. Fictional characters, from the movie “Uptown Girls”: I love the movie, “Uptown Girls”.  It shows that two completely different females, of completely different ages can unite and heal each other.   I chose characters, “Molly Gunn” (played by my beloved Brittany Murphy; I absolutely LOVE her) and  “Lorraine “Ray” Schleine” (played by Dakota Fanning) because at the end of the movie they break down their walls, and try to heal from the damage that is caused by the losses of both of their fathers (I wish I had watched this movie around the time I lost my own father).  Through struggle and acceptance of life’s obstacles they achieve transformation and happiness.  Now how is that not beautiful and honorable?

"Uptown Girls" movie poster

“Uptown Girls” movie poster

I hope you have enjoyed this list.  I have my own personal beauties who I come across in real life; women who I look up to and honor for one reason or the next but I wanted my list to be one that anyone can assess on their own and be able to research and come to their own conclusion if any of these “beauties” are heroic to them.   I will probably add more “beauties” in the future because there is no way my list could stop at four.  But I wanted to steal only a little bit of your time today 🙂  Have a good one… and much love from this side of the screen to yours.  ❤

I leave you with this song: